Legitimacy

Tomorrow, the day finally arrives.

I leave for Lithuania and by Tuesday I will be in Eastern Europe after years of dreaming about being there. I am energized for this adventure but, above all, I crave some direction from God about life after graduation. I'm tired of feeling like I have no legitimacy, like I'm an idealistic fool, like I conjured up the plan of serving the church there from an interesting 11th grade project and nothing more. For years, there has been no worse question than "why Eastern Europe?" and anytime I meet a person (at school, work, on a plane), the question always surfaces. It's not that I don't want to talk about God's place in and call on my life -- I can't help that (and wouldn't want to). It's that God hasn't given me an answer yet to this question. Therefore, I flounder and fumble and attempt to say something logical  or reverent sounding, but really I'm embarrassed that my answer is no more defined than last time. May this change soon.

For those of you less familiar with my reason for writing, let me sketch my upcoming months. I have deferred my enrollment at Wheaton and enrolled at LCC International University in Klaipeda, Lithuania, for the spring semester (until May). Klaipeda is a port city on the Baltic Sea and LCC is a Christian college - though students do not need to be Christians to attend. I'll live with 3 European roommates, attend classes, and branch out as the Spirit leads. Perhaps I'll tell you more later. Perhaps not. You'll have to check back to see! I do promise pictures at least...

I'd love for all of you to stay in contact with me as I attempt to keep you informed on my life. Please post comments, email me, write me letters, or skype me.

Tomorrow has turned into today!